Be who you are she said.
Sounds so easy, is so hard.
It needs passion, it needs art.
Feeding on this beating heart.

How can you be what no one is?
Be it an angel or the beast.
No one tells and no one knows.
Depths inside that you don’t show.

I am what I am and I accept
whatever’s hiding in this depth.
If you don’t like it, so be it.
I lead my life how I see fit.

Feelings are strange. Sometimes they just jump into your face out of nowhere, stay there for a few moments and then leave again. The hard part is to deal with these moments.

I haven’t written anything in the last few months. Then suddenly, along comes an old feeling that feels a lot less intense than it did in my last life. Looks like I changed a lot.

Anyway, I decided I’d write about it. It’s not a particularly good text and I just wrote it down the way it fell out of my head. It’s not as refined as most of my texts which usually take a few days to a few weeks to be finished, if ever.

Ich habe am 3. November 2015 erfolgreich die FCS Level 1 Prüfung abgelegt.
Super vielen dank an meinen wirklich guten Freund Thilo Würkner der mich Trainiert hat. Ohne dich hätte ich das nicht.

v.L.n.R.: Eugen Dahm, Daniel Neuretter, Ray Dionaldo, Thilo Würkner, Ich

Ich habe in der letzten Zeit einiges an Lehrgängen besucht. Wie jedes Jahr.
Dabei waren heuer: 5. Osterlehrgang mit Josef Linder, Budo Pfingstlehrgang Ansbach, Pinkafeld Gedenklehrgang für Franz Strauss, FCS Germany Gathering, FCS Austria Lehrgang und natürlich auch wieder der Kampfkunst/Ich hab Spaß mit Freunden - Urlaub in Göstling.

FCS Germany Gathering.
Hier irgendwo versteckt:
Ray Dionaldo
Wilfried Harloff
Tim Blaschke
René Zeller
Thilo Würkner
Daniel Neuretter
Ich

The devil is moving, it’s out of control.
It broke my heart now it is after my soul.
It made me lose all my self control and forced me to endure the worst of it all.

It made me a devil I never wanted to know.
Took me to a dark place in my very own soul.
One day I broke out of it’s tight control started a new life without all this sorrow.

The devil is moving but now I’m not alone.
I found an angel, a very kind soul.
It showed me that there is still so much more to know, feelings to share and wonders to behold.